“Human beings, who are almost unique in having the ability to
learn from the experience of others, are also remarkable for their apparent
disinclination to do so. ” Douglas Adams
As the due date for the twins is just 4 weeks away you could be forgiven for thinking we would be drawing on the knowledge and experience gained just over a year ago when L was born and now be confidently approaching the birth of the twins with the calmness and serenity of Buddhist Monk contemplating the ever after.
Not a bit of it. Anxiety is for both of us is building, sleep is declining and tears are flowing. Last night after the twins had given K a particularly rough day and with the chin strap of my evening crash helmet tightly fastened for the incoming evening barrage from K we had a few more tears than usual.
Whether it was the fact that we are almost ready (Apart from the feeding chair that is: More later) with the cots built, Moses baskets in the bedroom, emergency bag packed or that we had been reading some sage advice from another blogger I don’t know but there has certainly been an escalation in the levels of underlying tension.
There is very little that can be said and done and soothing words such as “Dont worry it will be over soon” and “You will feel better in a few weeks” sound completely useless as soon as they leave your mouth. However what did break through the gloom was thought of a day just over 2 years away.
Its 6am on Christmas Day three years from now. All is quiet except for the softly creaking floorboards of the landing created by 6 little feet edging their way hesitantly towards our bedroom door. “Shhh we can’t go in yet …..daddy said we had to wait until he woke up”. The door is pushed open anyway and L sends one of her reluctant sisters into the breach. Out of the corner of an pretending to be asleep eye K wakes up to the site of three little blonde heads beaming at her from the side of the bed and holding up their overflowing stockings in hope……
On this day in just over two year time hopefull today will seem like another world a very long time ago….